I miss the days of fad diets, of loosing 4 pounds in one day, of eating nothing but cabbage soup, or bacon and cheese. I miss knowing that while it can’t possibly last, it will be fast and relatively painless. I miss dropping a size in a week and feeling …. Not quite healthy, but good…. Thin even.
I have been religiously working out for six weeks now. Every morning (and every night for that matter) I get on the scale. The numbers are not budging! I am starting to seriously mourn the days of Atkins and injections (don’t ask) and quick weight loss, and fad diets.
My one consolation to all this eating healthy, working out, half a pound a week weight loss is that…. My jeans actually fit better. But I want to SCREAM! Because they are still the same size jeans.
I keep telling myself if I just stick with it, surely the numbers will change. I know I feel healthier. Not anybody could make it through that hour long spinning class at 5:45am. Surely that is a sign of good health? I barely made it through PowerPump last night… but I did. And that has to be a good sign too, right? My fitness watch is telling me I’m in my target heart rate zone more consistently, and I recover back to normal rate more quickly. I have more energy and I even… like working out.
But I want to be THIN!
I will focus on convincing myself that healthy is good. Whole grains are not the enemy! There are other vegetables besides just cabbage! I can eat well and keep up the exercise… and I WILL loose weight.
If I’m honest, I just love, love, love fad diets and skinny really is my ultimate goal…but HEALTHY is not such a bad runner up.
Goodbye, fad diets. Goodbye, fast weight loss. Hello new lifestyle. Hello healthy.